I'm going to be offline for a while posting less on here. I need time for certain activities in my mission as well as more time to introspect and integrate.
Your childhood traumas usually appear much worse than they actually were. Keep in mind, they are not those terribly scary things but merely stuck energy that waits to be resolved. Face it and let it flow through you.
Trying to heal a virus with an infinite amount of booster shots is like trying to put out a fire by pouring ever more oil into it.